I am hesitating with
this blog. It is very deep and personal,
and some may find it offensive and too contradictory to their beliefs. Please excuse me and allow me the courtesy of
having a different view than you may have and I gladly grant the same courtesy
Over two years ago,
I gave up on obliterating the crosses that kept coming up in my paintings, thanks
to a fabulous and highly intuitive teacher.
I started to vigorously pursue the painting of crosses and the series ‘Conjuntio
Oppositorum’ is what came out of that initial first year of exploration. At least half of those I thought, were kinda
like self portraits, but I didn’t really ‘get’ it. Then this past Lent, which I had not marked
in decades, I started a series on paper that are my stations of the cross. This lasted way past Easter, beyond the
twelve stations to 21, and I found that the paintings were speaking to me and
there is a bit of writing that came along with each one. I will get those up on my art website soon,
now that they are out of the closet.
To me, the sahuaro
photo on the top left of this blog is another cross (you can not see the left arm), and I see Jesus on/in that
all the time. We are taking a different walk
these days, now that the snakes are below ground, because this particular path
tends to have a lot of rattlesnakes on it (interesting symbolism here) and I
avoid it in the hot months. This sahuaro
is along the way and this morning IT spoke to me as I walked past. In a casual and everyday tone, not at all like
a voice of God, it said, ‘you are the cross’…hmmm…i am the cross…holy shit… i got
it…i reeled for hours… i felt the truth in this…i know myself in a new
I am the cross and
so are all humans. We are spirit come
down to earth (in the vertical axis planted in the ground) to experience the
broad range of duality (therefore, ideally, allowing others a broad range of
beliefs) being manifest on earth at this time.
This is what Jesus was teaching us.
He did not die on the cross, he was BORN on the cross…born back to pure
spirit, just as we all will be, someday soon.
I had been taught in my catholic upbringing that the cross was about suffering,
but I now see that it is about salvation and clarity.
Well , I’ve written
pages and pages today that I may feel like posting in the future…here is one of
the stations that actually has a discernible cross in it:
The road to heaven
is paved with hell and
the righteous feels wrong.
I fear the sun will set
and the blood will cease to flow
before i can surrender.
Here’s a link to my Sublime Studios website, the Conjunctio Oppositorum series: